Check in: 5-19-2016

Hey Dolls and Kens.

Today I want to talk about entrepreneurship/business/success/struggles and more. You may or may not know but I am starting my own businesses. I have a bakery, a YouTube, this blog, and I am working on creating a new product to sell(it’s geared for all types of students who need organization in their life. hint hint). Yes, it’s a lot. Is it all realistic? Yes. Very much so.

That is not what I am here to speak about though. I want to talk about how hard it is to start and maintain your own business(es). It’s frustrating at times! Let’s just get that out there. I knew I always wanted my own business, I never wanted to work for anyone else. Never. It took me a hell of a long time but I finally began to put myself out there and work on creating my own empire.

I keep wanting to complain and go down the bad memory lane but I am going to refrain from that. Working the mind out to not automatically go back to those depressing and negative thoughts.  I have had so much success in these last two weeks and I am so grateful of that. I have also had many obstacles (that I have passed through). I am not giving up nor taking a break, it’s way too soon and I have way too much to continue for that, BUT, I want to say that right now, this day, this very moment…I am a bit overwhelmed. With all of it. I have so much on my plate and I want to get it done, I know I can get it done but it’s still a lot and I am only human.

I had to ask God for forgiveness today. I was introduced to an opportunity for my blog that will catapult it further into success, then I saw the price for it (literally speaking. it was expensive) and I freaked out. I thought to myself “there’s no way I can afford that! What about my trip that is coming up? What about my savings?? Is this even going to pay off???” Then I gave myself a mental slap in the face and got my shit together. It was then that I asked for forgiveness.

How can we expect to move forward if we don’t take risks? How can we build our business and be successful if what we have to give up sometimes doesn’t scare us? Entrepreneurship and business owning aint easy. If it were, everyone would do it. I took the leap of faith and paid for the next step in my blog to happen, then the product began to give me hell. I couldn’t work it, I couldn’t figure it out, I couldn’t get in touch with support, I could barely understand the basics!

That’s when I began to feel overwhelmed and as if I made a mistake. I knew, though, the only reason I even thought of it as a mistake is because is cost me money. If it were free, I wouldn’t have been nearly as worried and anxious as I was. This is all apart of the process though. This is what I, and people like me, have got to understand. There are going to be choices we will have to make that we wont like, there will be risks to take, bridges to jump off of and we must do it, not all of them of course (always listen to your gut instinct!) but most of them are needed to show that we trust God, we trust our work, and we trust ourselves.


On that note, dolls and kens, I am going to end it. I don’t want to bore you all to death with my little ramblings. All in all, I am grateful for all of the opportunities and windows that have opened. I have seen more success in the last two weeks than I have in years of working for something. It’s all about the mind. If you believe you can, you’re already half way there.


Happy days. Smile. Laugh. Live. Love.



I wrote this essay a few months ago for a scholarship I wanted to apply for. I changed my essay completely for the scholarship but didn’t get rid of this one because I really like it. It makes me feel good about myself and reminds me that I am only human. I can only take so much and put only so much. Please enjoy.

Entrepreneurship: Confidence in the World

            The introduction is always the hardest part. I never know how to get my point across before actually stating the point. In 2011, I began my journey of baking. It became a passion for me and eventually my family pushed me into sharing my baked goods. Once I realized that my baked goods were different enough to share publicly, I tried to do just that; share them. My grandparents, my auntie, and my parents are the only ones that were actually requesting my cookies and willing to buy them or pay for them. I offered free samples as birthday gifts to a few friends and they have praised my goods but they haven’t come back to order any more. I worried constantly about what was wrong with my cookies and cakes until I realized that it had nothing to do with my baked goods, it was my confidence that was lacking. Nobody wants to give their money to someone who doesn’t have confidence in themselves. Not even I would want to do that. Sure, I would give advice, I would help promote others, I would give them the confidence and compliments they might need to hear, but would I invest in them? No.  There wasn’t any assurance in myself or my work and that was showing every time I asked “Did you really like it? Do you really think others will like it? Would you buy this?” Starting a business needs confidence, hard work, and determination. In order to pull myself out of poverty and become successful, I am learning this and embedding it into my everyday life.

April 3rd, 2015. That was the day I opened my business, Shai’s Bakery, online. For years I planned my business, expecting and wanting it to flourish within a month due to all the word-of-mouth promotion I was giving on my social media. I didn’t realize until a month later of being opened that I was lacking considerably in my promotion. I had extremely high expectations and didn’t put in the hard work that needed to go with it. My family and close friends praise my work and honor my taste and quality but my grandmother and parents are the only people who’ve actually bought my baked goods. That I am grateful for but it is also a huge disappointment in myself, in my work.

“Believe in yourself. You are the only person who has the ability to radically change your life. Focus on your time and energy on increasing your belief in what is possible for you, building your skills and creating a network of achievement focused relationships.” This quote by Les Brown (2015, Facebook) gave me a huge amount of inspiration. It was actually what inspired me to write this topic for my essay. Believing in yourself is one of the hardest things you can do in life. I know this personally. In high school, I gave up on life and contemplated suicide many times. Thankfully, I never had the guts to actually attempt it, though I did develop a slight addicted to pain killers. My confidence now isn’t perfect or the best it can be but I am much better than I was in high school. I stopped worrying about what people thought of me and my life. I started living for myself and not others. All of my relationships have changed. I don’t even talk to the people who I considered to be my best friends anymore. I now surround myself with friends and those alike who want to succeed in life and not just party all the time or be in a relationship because it’s a trend. That’s not what I’m worried about.

I want to work hard while I’m young and able, then relax when I’m older. When all my children are in high school or going off to college, I want to travel and experience the world in ways I couldn’t even imagine. I want to retire at 60 but still have a wealthy income coming in every month to provide for my family. In order to be healthy enough to retire at 60, I have to work hard in getting my eating habits and lifestyle healthy. Success starts from within, being healthy physically will help me endure the long work hours when baking a wedding cake for a customer, or standing all day when I have an order for 50 dozen cookies. Losing weight has been my biggest challenge but it incorporates itself into the determination of a successful business. When you work hard to keep your lifestyle healthy, you’re more equipped to work hard in other areas of your life, accomplishing what you want.

All in all success isn’t just for businesses. It’s taken me a long time to figure that out but once I realized it, I knew I could do anything I put my mind to. When people tell you “anything is possible,” it’s so true. I struggled with my confidence in myself, working to please others and living to their expectations of me. Now I am confident in my work, and am working to please myself and live to my expectations. I set my own pace and records and whether I meet them or not, I know that as long as I never give up, that as long as I keep trying, my determination will always pay off for the better.