Growing up I was never as close to God as I am now. It was for numerous reasons. My entire 23 years of life has been in poverty or poor. Never were we rich or middle class. It was always hard and we always lived pay check to pay check. Now that I have started my own business I have become much more closer to God though I still have a long journey to go.
Too often has my mind kept me where I currently am. I’m so used to not getting any better in life, used to staying in the mediocrity of success, used to not having good luck or fortune that when I wanted more, the thought of asking for it made me feel selfish and non-appreciative. Branching more into God and my faith, I’ve realized that My God is a big God, a Strong God, and a willing God. What I ask of, for the betterment of me or my people, he will provide; I just have to do the work. It will happen on His terms, His time, yes, but it will happen. He provides everything that I need, always has and always will, but the things that I want….He wants me to work for and I fully understand that.
I just have to fully get my mind to grasp this knowledge. The Devil works hard to keep you away from God and when things get rough, the first thoughts of mine are usually, “this isnt meant to happy, I didn’t work hard enough, this isnt the right time, I’m never going to get better. I’m going to have to make horrible decisions to make it happen myself” instead of, “God is testing me and my faith, I will make it through this, There will be no more struggles, I am happy where I am, I am thankful for these struggles as they make me who I am, they strengthen me.” Changing the mind when it’s used to something is, I feel, one of the hardest things to do in life.