24 and confused

I think I am having a twenties-mid-life-crisis.

From 18 years old I was so sure of what I wanted to do, I had a lot of dreams, many different careers but they all led to owning a business. I still have those dreams but which one should I focus on more? I wish I knew. I wish my mind knew. I wish my heart knew. Because none of them know the answer. I just want a business of my own.

I know that I want a restaurant, I know that I want my bakery, I know that I want a graphic design business(I mean, I’m going to school for graphic design and computer information technology), and I also know that I want my own clothing line, I also want to do a lot of non-profit businesses. I want my name to be a brand. I want to be a brand. But I don’t want the limelight either. I want people to know of me but know that I do my work behind the scenes. Yet, I want to be the owner, the CEO, the creator, the Queen of my Empire….see my problem?

I am working in school, I have my YouTube channel to brand my name, and I am still working(behind the scenes) on Shai’s Bakery. Even though my bakery isn’t really noticed by the world yet, that’s my baby and I’m proud of myself for keeping it this long because let me tell you, there have been many times I’ve thought to take it off the radar until I could revamp it only because nobody really paid it any mind. I am considering, now that this revelation has come to me, that maybe I should change my major and minor to business and entrepreneurship. It would make sense.

I can learn all the rest of the details on my own like I have been doing but the business aspect of things, I just can’t learn without experience. I need the foundation set out for me where I can come back to it as needed.

This post has been enlightening for me, I started writing it as a rant and in a confused and frustrated state but now I have actually found the insight I was looking for and am now feeling much more calm and directed.

If you have any good vibes and advice you’d like to offer on my situation right now and what I should/plan/want to do…please let me know. I appreciate all comments and would love to hear some positive thoughts and advice in my life.

Hakeem & Cookie (spoilers!)

What can I even say about Empire? I was hooked from the first trailers of the show and the first episode. The music mogul family and their drama has returned last night to FOX channel.

When the last season ended, I didn’t feel very interested in the show. Now I have been a fan of Cookie and she has been the star for me personally, but I felt the show was getting slightly repetitious. When the show came back last night, I was grateful that it started with Cookie beating her youngest son, Hakeem like the very first season started with. I was glued from there on.

Rhonda, Andre’s wife, saved herself (kudos to Rhonda using the cellphone to start her alarm!) but when taken to the hospital, found out she had lost the baby. Shady Anika had the nerve to visit her and ask what happened. SMH. The shadiness that is Anika is so horrible. I never really liked Rhondas character but I felt for her when she lost her baby. Andre, once again had a mental breakdown and I can’t even begin to blame him. Who wouldn’t suffer greatly after a horrific accident like that?

Jamal is now in a state of bisexuality. There is nothing wrong with that and he’s still doing great with his music career. You go, Jamal!

Hakeem. What is there really to say about this one? He seems to always be in trouble with his parents in one way or another. Hakeem has voted his father out of the company and gave the company to his girlfriend, Camille. He then was voted, or rather he took the title of CEO, once Camille was in control. I personally don’t think Hakeem should have that power and control of the business. I think he’s way too immature for something this big. He has shown his ignorance of the business and the truth of running a business like this many times before. I think he’s too proud and selfish to truly run the business and have a successful term while running it.

Cookie wants to keep the business within the family, even if that means getting Lucious back at the top (personally I want Cookie herself to own her company again) and I can’t blame her. I’d rather have the business in the hands of the family than some woman who’s out to hurt my family and separate them, if I were in Cookies position.

In the previews of next episode, we see Anika being rushed to the hospital. My first thought was Rhonda got her revenge. I am amped and excited to find out who exactly has caused injury to Anika. It might be someone that has nothing to do with Rhonda. I won’t be shocked if so. Karma is a bitch, afterall. Andre is seen questioning Rhonda about whether or not she has been cheating on him ( I bet she was, I felt that she was cheating from the first time I saw her! ) and her reply gave me my answer. She cheated. Lucious came after Hakeem with a challenge and threat. Stating that since Hakeem didn’t kill his father for the title of their business, Hakeem needs to now watch his back because Lucious will stop at nothing to get his throne back.

 

If you watched the show I’d love to hear your thoughts and feelings on the new season and what you expect to see!

 

Stay lovely, Stay happy, Stay Positive.

Shai.

KleanColor Lipsticks!! Beauty Value

Hi Dolls and Kens! I just reviewed this product from Kleancolor. I’ve been hearing so much good stuff about these colors so I bought them and tried them out. I have a video for you on my youtube and I reviewed on Amazon.com. ALL THE COLORS IN MY PICTURE ARE $8.95 TOTAL, NOT EACH, BUT TOTAL. That’s such a great deal because let me tell you I don’t have the time to be spending $8.95 on ONE lipstick lol! I will admit I did think the products would be cheap and not worth this but they’re actually very good quality! Not perfect by any means, but better quality than you would expect for the whole set to be $8.95. They smell good too. So let’s get into the review!

You can view my Amazon review here if you don’t want to watch the full 20 minute unboxing and review on youtube (but it would be so awesome if you guys supported my youtube and subscribed to my channel!! )

 

Happy Blogging beauties!

Shai

 

** I am in no way endorsed, sponsored, or paid for this review on any of the platforms. These opinions are honest and true. All rights reserved for YouTube, Amazon, and Kleancolor and all of their affiliates. This is just a review**

Free App! The Fabulous-Motivate Me.

Hi dolls and kens! I’m back with an app review for you. Before I get into the main post I do want to say thank you to all of my followers and for sticking around with me even though I am not yet as active as I would like to be on here. You guys are awesome and you keep me going!

 

Screenshot_2016-02-22-07-13-20 The Fabulous – Motivate Me app is a great habit tracker. Now, I have tried tracking my habits on my own in my bullet journal and I have not been very successful. I am more a visual type of learner and I like to see my progress laid out in a very simple yet adorable fashion and I do not yet have the patience nor creativity to do so in my bullet journal. Where am I going with this information? This app. It’s so simplistic but so beautiful. While I believe it is geared more for the women who want to live healthier mentally, physically, emotionally, I don’t consider it so ‘girly’ that men aren’t able to use the app as well.

Screenshot_2016-02-22-07-39-48 This is your homepage. I have been using the app for about 4 days now so I have more notifications (not too many though!). As you can see, it tells me what actions I need to take in order to be successful in my daily habit goals, for a great breakfast, I need to go to the store and buy fruits and eggs for the week( for my morning protein). This action did come automatic once I chose to accept the “great daily breakfast” challenge but I am glad that it did because I don’t have enough fruits and eggs for the week, so as long as I open my phone daily and check my notifications, I’ll be reminded to get said groceries. If you don’t need or want this notification you can definitely swipe it away (these cards are very much like Google Cards where you can swipe what you’ve read or don’t want so it’s very easy).

Screenshot_2016-02-22-07-39-59 Still on the homepage, you get these beautiful little letters. They do have some length to them but I had no problem reading the full letter and I enjoyed it. It is personalized to your name (which is pretty much the only thing you have to input as you first use the app, and your email unless you want to create a profile then you just enter in a password and you’re done. Honestly this app is so simple. I love it) and your habits or challenges that you chose to follow.

Screenshot_2016-02-22-07-40-24 Right now I am taking the “Feel more energized” challenge which includes drinking water first thing in the morning. Now this is something that I have been doing already but I haven’t been doing it consistently. This app helps me to track it daily and helps me prepare the night before by reminding me to place a bottle in clear view or my vision and to keep a bottle of water near me so that when I wake up, it is the first thing I see. I also accepted the challenge to eat a great breakfast daily, which basically says ‘eat protein to keep you full until lunch time’. I was skeptical of this challenge but I promise you guys since I started it(only about 3 days ago), I literally have been full from 7am (my usual wake up time) to noon(my usual lunch time). I do drink water in between those times which also helps curb my appetite but the protein thing works great too and I feel much more energized.

Now, if you’ve been looking at my screen shots I have provided, you’ll notice a little spaceship in the bottom right corner of the homepage. This is what you will click to tell the app you have completed your goals for the day or this is where you go to ‘get fabulous’. Once you click on “Make me fabulous,” it takes you to the, yep, you guessed it, “make me fabulous” page! There you can follow yoga instructions, take a motivated power nap, meditate, exercise, and follow a guided stretch plan.

 

I have only done the exercise and meditate guides so far and I really like them. In the meditate card, you have the option to do 3 Breather meditations and one Bell Only Meditation. The Breather meditations include one 5 minute and two 10 minute sessions. Each one with a guided calm and soothing voice to help you along if you need it, if not, go ahead and mute your phone. I personally like to hear the voice calmly instructing my mind to take a break and experience inner being life. As far as the exercise card, I have used it twice so far and it tracks how long I work out and then adds it to my calendar within the app. I haven’t paid much attention to this card yet but I do plan on using it more and paying more attention to it to see what it offers.

Alrighty folks, I think this is long enough and more than enough information to give you and idea of whether or not the app is worth trying out. My honest opinion is yes, download this baby and take full advantage of it, it is free anyways so what do you have to lose??

You can find this on the google play store or sign up for a email when it is available on iOS.

 

 

Happy Blogging babies!

Shai

 

** I am in no way endorsed or sponsored by The Fabulous and it’s affiliates. All images except the featured image are my own screenshots. All rights belong to The Fabulous and it’s affiliates. This is just my personal recommendation of the app and it’s use.**

 

Bucket list! 30 goals before I’m 30.

Hello loves!

I’m here tonight with a bucket list post. I’ve been planning new blog ideas to complete and this is one of them. I am going to do exactly what the title implies: list 30 bucket list goals that I want to do before I’m 30 years old. I’m 24 years old now so that gives me only 7 years to complete these goals. Now I have to remind myself that what doesn’t get completed or reached doesn’t mean I am a failure or the world will end(figuratively speaking) but that I just have more time to complete the unfinished! So let’s get into this list. I won’t have much text because reading 30 items is quite a bit for some folks so I’m going to keep it simple and to the point (I also want to point out that this list is NOT in any specific order).

  1. Participate in a color run.
  2. Visit Paris (I actually want to do this for my 30th birthday).
  3. Become a mommy!
  4. Watch the sunrise/sunset on the beach (I have not done this yet omg).
  5. Practice yoga on the beach in the morning
  6. Run a mile on the beach
  7. Graduate college (anticipated grad so far is 2019)
  8. Buy a house (no finance!)
  9. Host a 4th of July fireworks show at my home.
  10. Have Christmas at my house.
  11. Get married (I am so iffy with this but I’m really praying God provides me with the man He created for me or the marriage thing wont work, I know myself lol)
  12. Visit Disney World
  13. Learn a new language and speak it fluently(enough to get around a foreign place at least)
  14. Buy a pair of Louboutin
  15. Have my own physical store for Shai’s Bakery
  16. Pay for a stranger’s groceries(anything to “pay-it-forward” really)
  17. Build a Gingerbread House (I literally have not done this yet and I don’t even think I’ve tried yet omg)
  18. Visit NO during Mardi Gras
  19. Have a professional photo shoot
  20. Adopt a puppy
  21. Start a new tradition(or habit)
  22. Go whale watching
  23. Visit Times Square
  24. Have a closet that resembles a Boutique( I highly suggest googling pictures for this because if you are a closet girl like myself you will love it).
  25. Film and direct a music video
  26. Find a new church
  27. Have a developed healthy lifestyle
  28. Send Mom on a cruise
  29. Throw my brother a surprise 21st
  30. Go to a drive in movie

 

Very small Target/E.L.F haul

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Hey loves! I’m back with another post. Did you miss me? I hope you did.

This post will be about the small haul I got today at Target. I went in the store today with my grandmother, not planning at all to buy anything then as we were walking down the makeup aisles, I see e.l.f products. I bought my first elf products at walmart and they are still doing good to me and since I needed these products but didn’t want to spend a ridiculous amount of money I figured I might as well get this. I haven’t opened them yet as I want to do a video for my very small haul and then review them the same day but I will give you the prices and details.

 

The e.l.f Shadow Lock Eyelid Primer: 21711 Sheer, $1.00. Preps your eyelids for smoother, long-lasting, crease-proof eyeshadow. The ultra sheer color works to increase eye color longevity.

e.l.f Natural Lash Kit: 1713, $1.00. Enhance your natural lash line with these beautiful faux lashes. They instantly intensify and add depth for a glamorous look(I love glamour so these are perfect me so far!).

e.l.f 3-in-1 Mascara: 81440 Very Black, $3.00. All-in-one professional mascara that helps lengthen, define and volumize lashes. Uniquely shaped silicone brush has precision bristles to coat lashes for a dramatic look. Long lasting formula helps give all-day, smudge-free, budge-free wear(I’ve been looking for a mascara with the little knob at the tip of the brush for my lower lashes since I barely have lashes there at all. I’m really hoping this brush captures my lower lashes and makes them really noticeable).

Last but not least.   e.l.f High Definition Powder: 83333 Soft Luminance, $6.00. The high definition loose powder creates a “soft focus” effect on the skin. Masks fine lines and gives skin a soft luminizing effect to blur imperfections. The incredibly soft powder is great for on camera and everyday wear. 

 

So that’s the scoop. I will do another post when I try these out for a few days or maybe a week and review them.

Happy blogging, stay happy, smile, laugh, be the best you can be.

Shai

 

*I am in no way endorsed or paid for this post. I simply wanted to share my new purchases with you all*

Being a Shy Introvert.

I want to try something new. That something new is going to be talking about Thing’s I’ve Learned. Being a shy introvert is my first topic since it is so familiar to me.

I’ve been shy all my life but it got really bad when I started Vallejo Jr High, middle school. I started school alone, all my friends went to another school and I had to make friends all over again. I felt lost. I didn’t speak to anyone, I only smiled when someone smiled at me first (which was very rare at that school) and I actually never made friends there. I attended Vallejo Jr for only 3 months as in October of that year, my family and I moved out to Vegas. When we finally came out here, school was even worse for me. I truly had no friends, lost contact with my previous elementary friends, and knew absolutely no one out here.

People at school took my shyness as a form of arrogance or being mean. It wasn’t just kids at school but everyone I seemed to run into took it that way. I have to admit, even I take one’s shyness that way but then I remember how I am and I quickly correct myself and my thoughts.

I wanted to be included in all the clubs, activities, and get-togethers at school and outside of school but I never spoke up because I was way too shy for that. That, and nobody ever offered me to join.

 

The rest of this post will be mostly pictures that I can fully 100% relate to. I hope you have a good laugh reading these because I sure did.

 

I cried laughing at the roll call meme, I did that every class. That one and the one about coughing speaks to me on a spiritual level, okay? I have a connection with those two lol

 

Well that’s the end of it for now, folks. I hope you enjoyed!

Stay happy, love, live, laugh, be the best person you can be.

 

Shai

 

 

*all pictures and tweets, except the featured image, is from google. The featured image was created by me*

2016

HAPPY NEW YEAR. Yes, I am late but I wanted to say it anyways!

January, the month for new starts, new relationships, new resolutions, new promises and always, the “new me.” I decided I would try my best to not say any of the above. It’s cliche to me, and it just doesn’t work. Every time I say it, I don’t do any of the things I wanted. I don’t complete my resolutions, I don’t form new friendships, and I don’t change as a person.

So this year I decided to make goals. It’s still the same concept but the name difference makes me want to work extra hard to reach them. Some differences I’ve made to start my journey is creating my very own bullet journal. I found out about bullet journals last year and have fallen in love with them. They can be simple, cheap, extravagant, artistic, and so much more. I am not a very artistic person but I am trying my best to make it as creative as possible. If you are interested in making your own you can buy one at the link provided above or if you have blank notebooks that you aren’t getting any use out of you can create your own(like I did) and here are some of my favorite spreads/layouts.

I have also started a YouTube page. You can check it out if you would like (would love it if you watched my videos, thumbs them up, commented, and of course subscribed, yes I am shamelessly promoting myself). It was my first step in stepping out of my comfort zone which is one of my goals. I want to be uncomfortable so that I may progress forward in life and enjoy more things than I have been able to so far. I plan to make my YouTube for many different things including so far: makeup, hair tutorials and talk, lifestyle talk, vlogging, gameplay (I am a sims 3 player so faithfully omg), and many other things. If you have any suggestions for me relating to what content I should or could provide on my YT please let me know!

*IMPORTANT UPDATE*

I just recently changed my blog URL to laqingincreativity.wordpress.com. I took the name from my old blog that failed and I literally just found it tonight and remembered that I loved that name so I changed this one from shaisbakery to laqingincreativity. So if you see that name on your dashboard please don’t be worried that you followed someone unknown, it is my new blog URL.

Another thing I want to mention is school. After my two week winter break from Uni, I’m getting back into the hang of homework and what not. Can I just say that it’s stressful?? Because it is. I cannot wait until this class is over (come on, February!) but my next class is maths: applied statistics. I hate math with a passion so I’m pretty sure that’s going to stress me out as well. On a good note, I am devoting myself more to homework and class related readings. I am getting my good grades but man it’s stressful. Can’t wait for summer break!

Happy Blogging, happy days, smile, laugh, & live,

Shai

*image is from google*

Makeup review

Hey guys! Today I will be doing a review on the makeup I recently bought. Some I have tried in a full face application and some I have not yet. Before we go any further I want to show you what I bought!

Here is the foundation that I’ve started using.

L’oreal true match : cappuccino n8

This is my first foundation ever but I really like it! After watching YouTube makeup videos for almost a good year and seeing a lot of beauty gurus using this, im pretty confident in my purchase. The color is a little dark going on but it blends out to match my skin tone perfectly! I bought it from Walmart for about $8. The quality is really good. The texture is smooth going on and feels great on my face. It doesn’t cake up at all or make me look dry and ashy. I didn’t use a beauty blender to apply it. I just used my hands and the application turned out really good. The only downside to this I think is how liquid the foundation is, it runs out the bottle quickly and I wasted a bit of it because of that but it’s not an annoying amount. Just be careful when you pour this out onto anything!
The next thing I am going to review is this lipstick.

wet n wild: 503c

 

I also bought this at Walmart. The lipstick was about $2. Cheap finds but really nice quality. The lipstick is a beautiful pink salmon color to me. I usually don’t wear bright colors but this is really nice on me and it’s surely becoming a favorite! Here is a full face picture of my makeup.

  

The blush I used is actually lipstick! I used my wet n wild 505A for the blush. I wanted a pink tone as you can see on my face lol

The eyeshadow is from my Hard Candy eye palette Rated X 889.

I used the two pink colors from the palette. For my eyebrows I just used a brown eye liner/lip pencil. I couldn’t find my eyebrow makeup so I worked with what I could find.

I used a little bit of bronzer from Rimmel London.

This is the concealer I used. I don’t remember the exactly price but it was around $5 so it wasn’t too expensive.

I used this for my “finish” but I honestly don’t really like this powder. It makes me feel dry and look ashy so I didn’t use a lot at all. I wouldn’t recommend this. If I could take it back, I would but I lost my receipt. For my mascara I used maybellines The Falsies Volum Express. I love the brush because it’s curved and allows me to get my bottom lashes really well without making a mess on my eyes with the mascara.

Okay you guys, that’s all for now! I have two other makeup products that I have to try out and review but that will be for another post!

Happy days, God bless, love yourself, be a good person, and try to do right with your life.

Shai.

41 days

So apparently it has been that long since my last post. 41 days. That is not good and I’m not happy about it. 

I made this blog with the intentions of finally keeping to something and gaining new friends and acquaintances in the process but so far, it’s not so different. I believe this is the longest I’ve kept a blog but I still don’t have much activity. 

I keep making promises to post a certain amount per week and to blog about different things but honestly, it’s harder than it seems. 

It’s time to make a change. A big one. I’m not making any promises but my plan is to change my mindset. Not to post more, not to workout more, not to eat healthier. No. My plan is to change the way I think. 

I dream all the time. Literally, I’m dreaming and living different lifestyles in my head everyday. But I don’t do any of those things. I have said too many times that I was going to step out of my comfort zone only to have something come up and I allowed it to become my excuse of why I didn’t follow through with it. I want to stop doing that. 

I want to live and experience. In my position right now, it’s so difficult to do that, but! I want to change my mind and get out there. I’m tired of living in poverty but I have to be honest with myself and admit that change, the process of getting out of poverty, the risks, while they excite me for the good future, they frighten me for the biggest “what if” of all: what if I fail at everything? What if I never become successful? What if I am one of the people who are just meant to dream and never live?

As I am writing this, I hear my angels telling me that’s nothing but the devil getting into my head and trying to keep me down. Which I believe. But it still is frightening. I have tried so many times before and honestly, I am an impatient person. 

My next words, well thoughts were pondered on. I wondered if I should be honest and put my thoughts here but I decided doing so will be my first time (in a long time) of stepping out of my comfort zone. So here it goes. 

I have thought many times of going down the wrong path, finding a sugar daddy, becoming friends with pot dealers, he’ll I even thought of selling drugs myself, anything to get out of this poverty and support my family. Every time  I truly consider it though, I thankfully come back to earth and realize I don’t want that. I want to work for my success. I remind myself that cash is not everything. It helps out a hell of a lot to have a comfortable amount of cash at your disposal but it doesn’t make one happy. And that’s what I want, happiness. That is my ultimate wish, my ultimate goal. Along with financial stability for myself, family, and future family but I want happiness. That’s what really makes life worth living. 

It feels good to get this out. I talk to my family about these thoughts every now and then but here, it makes me feel like I’ve finally let go of some weight. 

Well, I am done with my thoughts for now. I have many plans to still accomplish but I will stop here. 

God bless you all, stay true to yourself, try to stay humble, keep smiling, live happy, and try to be a good person.

Shai.